I’ve been getting better. I ate pretty well last week. I still slip up and I still don’t hate myself for it. I was reminded this morning that things like catching up with friends and having takeaways sometimes is a okay. Eating and friendships are important. Maybe not eating take out but you get the jist. I have, however, realised the repercussions of beer. I really love beer. However, in terms of getting back in shape it’s probably time I just relax on the beers. It is 10 weeks until we go on holiday and I really, really want to be able to go shopping and fit some of my dresses. Last summer I was a bit lighter and I was miserable because all my dresses and shorts fit so uncomfortably and the new ones I bought were awful. I tried on an old dress on the other day and my best friend (bless her soul) tried to tell me it didn’t look too bad. Lets be honest here – white is v e r y unforgiving and two of my favourite dresses are WHITE (see photo above)
I’m very proud of myself. I weighed myself last week and it wasn’t exactly what I wanted but it was not a gain (I think it was just under a kilo) The gym progress hasn’t been going so well. A friend of mine lost A LOT of weight over the past year and is looking toned and amazing. When I told her about my weight loss woes she gave me her boyfriends number (who is a personal trainer) who will hopefully help me develop a good routine and give me some different exercises to help me get back into business. JP also discovered a short cut to walk to work which is so much nicer than my usual walk. It’s half the time which is fine but I would much rather walk a shorter distance than miss out on an opportunity to get some exercise. As I have said before, it is so much easier to take the easier option.
I’ve been working on meal prep a lot more. Cooking for a couple of hours on a Sunday when I am relaxed etc is ten times easier than cooking every night and worrying about what time I’m going to get to bed and whether or not I am going to get enough sleep. Also – making an effort to buy less processed food. This is a hard one. It can look fine on your calories but honestly – there are better things I can eat AMIRITE?
How I feel about about it everything
Writing about this has really changed my perspective and made me so much more mindful. It’s been interesting to read other peoples weight loss journeys and to see how far other bloggers have come which is really inspirational. Everyone can do it, it’s all a matter of actually doing it, yknow? I feel guilty if I haven’t put any effort in so I am really, really trying here. I love that there is a community of people in the exact same boat as me.
I am proposing a challenge for myself. I said it ages ago when it was 14 odd weeks out from my holiday but this week I want to start losing a kilo a week. Now, I am aware that weight fluctuates etc and that is all well and good so I’ll do weekly measurements – this time I am SERIOUS. I will not do another chubby summer. I swear!
After taking two weeks off I decided to walk home today. I had a terrible sleep the night before and pushing myself to the limit wasn’t in my best interest. During this walk I got to thinking about working out and eating healthy. Some of these are semi double ups but bare with me. Positive affirmations and truths make the harder, shittier stuff much easier for the brain to digest.
1. If you want to get into shape you need to work for it otherwise you’ll be in the same space you started and will end up feeling crappy for not changing anything.
2. Your gym membership payment is just a donation if you don’t go.
3. The thought of doing exercise and eating healthy is harder than the act itself. Challenge your brain.
4. Eating healthier and working out only does good things for your body and brain
5. Working out is hard work but so worth it
6. Keeping in shape is in your best interest
7. Making an effort to eat better and look after yourself is an act of radical self love
8. Thinking about working out and working out are two completely different things
9. Creating healthy habits now are in your best interest as well as your future self and family
10. Eating healthy doesn’t have to be awful
We’ve jumped between gray skies and sunshine this week. It’s been so bloody nice especially because it’s annoying when it’s still light out and it’s raining. Wednesday was beautiful so we went to the pub and had some beers followed by the best steak meal ever. We went out for dinner and drinks on Friday and it was the first time we didnt get ~loose~ in a long time. Saturday was so productive and we drove around heaps, went to dressmart, walked Brax then got the rest for the rum bottling (btw – amazing) We all slept in till 10 this morning (unheard of coz I usually wake naturally around 7) Then milled around.
Little things: only a few more weeks till our holiday; not hating my job or work mates; the fraudulent document course we’re doing this week; cooking for the week; clean sheets (just made my bed 🙌🏼); living with Loki and Aimee; American Horror Story: Coven (half watched while cooking); My Favourite Murder, This American Life etc); Kath and Kim; and avocado on toast.
Hot caramel rum
I started writing up a draft yesterday morning so I wouldn’t be too tired to write. However, today was really great and so was Saturday. After sleeping off the worst of my hangover we drove out to Kilbirnie, got one of the best sandwiches I’ve ever had, bought some supplies and came home. We then made fudge and hot caramel and infused some rum with it. Merchant & Co on Courtenay Place do the best ever salted caramel rum which is a nice nightcap. Then, today we ran some errands, went to the gym, took Loki for a walk and I made dinner for the next two nights. I’m pretty beat now but hey, it’s so worth it.
I signed up to the gym on Thursday, skipped it on Friday to go to our friends house (it was sunny and sun = beer on the deck) and have planned to go after work and since I’m chef here I wanted to get everything organised. Here’s to another week of productivity and hopefully work outs lol.
Little things: my little Shadow Loki; running errands and laxing with JP; cheaper avocados; beginning of strawberry season; getting good feedback from my boss; having my hair braided by Lilli; the place we’re staying at over Christmas and New Years down south; Heroes; warmer weather; sleep ins; My Favourite Murder + This American Life + Undisclosed + Savage Lovecast; clean sheets; planning my Summer wardrobe; and eating better!
As you know I’ve been so lazy recently. It’s not that I don’t want to I just haven’t been, yknow, doing. It’s daylight savings this week so yesterday evening I took Loki for a walk around the Botanical Gardens and felt so much better for it! When the weather is so mild and it’s light out it feels like a waste to be inside watching tv. I’ve started doing things differently this past week though. Also, that photo is not this weeks weight. I just couldn’t find one haha. So here is my list:
Stopped with the high calorie snacks – I was buying bags of nuts and eating 3/4 a packet in a day. Do I have self control? Most definitely not. I bought them for the week but after logging them in My Fitness Pal decided that I’m either going to have to weigh them or not have them. Same for bliss balls. The Tom and Luke’s peanut butter and cacao ones are bloody delicious but rack up the calories. I’ve swapped them for popcorn (I share it with my work mates), bananas, celery and a couple of slices of cheese on a grainy cracker.
Lunch is better – I am always horrified at how high Uncle Ben’s microwave rice is in calories (specifically the pilau one 10/10) but if I have it with 100gm chicken then I’m usually good for the rest of the day. I’m not bored of it yet but definitely going to look into different lunch options.
Weighing yourself after half-assing your diet and exercise is such a bitch but I checked the scales briefly and there hasn’t been too much of a change (thank god). I guess you put in what you get out so I feel a lot less bummed out if I know that change isn’t likely. Shit happens, time to move on.
I’m signing up to the gym again. Yep, as soon as my pay comes through on Thursday I’m doing it. Bring back the soul cleansing 2hr gym sessions I loved so much.
So there we have it. I’m working on it and doing my best to get there.
I haven’t taken a selfie in so long so I dug up one from the archives. My front camera is broken and my camera was stolen by gang associates a couple of years ago. I love photos and I loved looking back at the old photos that I had stored. Boyfriends, heartbreak, work fun, personal revelations, happiness and deep depression. It’s so easy to forget that we all go through the ebb and flow of life and no matter what happens – you’ll always be okay. That is so nice to know and today I’m greatful for my journey. We forget that we go through so much and never give ourselves the credit.
Little things: having a visit from Brax (!!!); Loki coming back after his holiday; having a clean house; plus clean sheets omg; getting loads of rest; marathoning Heroes; daylight savings (warm weather soon!); This American Life, my workplace; tamarillos; Onceit; getting a bit of sun on Saturday; and writing
10-15 kilos ago when I had discipline
Aie aie aie! It hasn’t been a good time lately. Did you know that there is never a good time to lose weight? Yup. It has taken me this long to realise this. I guess patterns need a little time to reach the brain….well my brain at least! I’ve got back on the bandwagon and aside from exercising everything is going semi okay.
Whats important here is that I am finally getting through to myself. If you stop you will never go anywhere and you’ll just end up feeling gutted that you fucked out and didn’t keep on. That’s been me for the past 3-4 years. I feel like writing about this is like a prequel to the actual event. I call it ‘The Hobbit: From Bilbo Baggins to Gandalf in 10 easy steps, 4 epiphanies and 7 failures’ ha.
I forget that Weightloss is as much of a physical transformation as a mental one. Do you love you right body? Yes. Are you doing this to improve your health? Yes. Are you doing this to improve your body so that in the future you’re a healthy and healthy human? Yes. There’s no point in doing something that you’re not mentally ready for giving up an old routine. I used to eat a lot when I worked out lots because I could (calories in, calories out etc)