Weekly Love

  
I had a fairly horrendous start to the week. Too much coffee really threw me and I was a bit of a mess. Mix that with being a part time crazy person and well…..fuck. Once the weekend rolled around everything got better. Chilling with my best friend and having a couple of quiet ones with JP meant the week was finished on a high. I’m pretty lucky and I sure as shit don’t take any of it for granted!

  
Little things: Loki sticking his head out the window and looking like a wookie; kicking it with Aimee (always a pleasure never a chore); ‘Aroha…..I want a coffee but I don’t want to pay for it'; dinner at La Boca Loca followed by Hells because why not; driving around the suburbs; bumping into my cousin; excitement for upcoming training and working on my diet!

Things I wish I knew when I was 18



I don’t regret a lot of things I’ve done in my time. After a while I just stopped caring so much coz it just stops mattering. But I dunno, I just got to thinking today about things I would’ve done differently. Here is an open letter to 18/19 year old Anna.

Dear Anna

I know this is a troubling time for you. It literally feels like everything around you is falling to pieces and you’ve had to grow up fast. Hang in there it gets so much better. 

Firstly, quit your job. It’s giving you way too much anxiety and your boss is an ass. Matter of fact – steer clear of hospo jobs. They will just make you so unhappy. You’re going to get offered a job at a hotel later – do not take it. 

Second up, when you quit your job stop smoking as well. I know it’s a crutch right now and is helping pass this boredom thang you got going on but I promise you – in 6 years time the price DOUBLES! I would also hate to think how much you spend on them.

This part here is a massive sore patch. I’m aware that mum and dad breaking up, finishing school, and all your friends starting new chapters has put you into a bad place. This place won’t last I promise but it comes back to haunt you later. And then again a few years later. Keep going to the gym and eating healthy!!! These two things will change everything. 

Soon enough you’re going to move out of home. I tell you one thing for free – having spare coin up your sleeve is never a bad thing. Stop spending your money on random things you don’t need coz you’ll stupidly get a credit card to fund your first overseas trip and spend the next 3 years paying interest on it. 

Keep doing you, girl. Everything that’s happening now will shape you to be a stronger person later on and you will be proud of who you’ve become. 

Love,

Future Anna

Weekly Love



Im not sure who reads this but you’ve probably noticed that I don’t post very often. I always do my best to update my gratitude because it keeps me good and reminds me even on my darkest days that life is pretty A+. Also, my flat mate is choosing to watch flickery thibgs on tv and I’m sick so sleep is totally out of the question. 

1. JP – I know I know he’s always on this list but Yknow what? He’s seen me in all states and still loves me. I had a real shitty time on Saturday and he reminded me of things I used to do to keep me happy. Plus, even though I caught the flu off of him he still walked across town (looking fine as hell I might add) to bring me pho. 

2. My new manager – she is honestly a total power house and she makes me laugh so much. I have a lot of respect for her and love working with her. 

3. My job – ok yeah work can be challenging sometimes and after working with boys all the time working with girls is a whole different ball game but I’m fond of my job because making other people feel good is my raison d’être. Period. 

4. Meditating – always brings me back to my happy place and it’s so rad. I’m going to start doing balance classes again which brings me to my next point….

5. Being in a financial position to go to the gym again – plus the reminder that when I bust my ass at the gym and eat healthier I’m the best version of myself. 

6. Mood boards – one of my workmates and I were talking about style and she suggested a mood board so last night in bed I did just that. I varied my pins from lifestyle to fashion  because gurrrrl, I’m having some issues haha!

7. Impromptu sleepovers – despite me being sick Piri came over with lemonade ice blocks and we sat in bed and talked about boys (no lies!) and in the morning she made us breakfast. I love seeing my friends. 

8. Emails from Aimee – I get so excited when I check my inbox and I have many different emails from her that I know will be hilarious. 

9. Having a new bed frame – no more saggy bed = amazing sleeps.

10. Gabby Bernstein – for keeping shit. super real.

11. Planning to visit my mum – I haven’t seen her in so long and I’m just as excited to see the cats. 

12. Having animal days – I’m having animal withdrawls and spending the day with animals makes me 10 times happier! 

Weekly Love

IMG_4393I had a super tiring week this week. It seems if I don’t get one good day to myself then I am a goner for the rest of the week. Here are the things I’m grateful for this week.
1. Having a luxury like sky so I can watch my shows whenever I please. Namely Criminal Minds but it is the best feeling to sit in my pjs and chill.
2. Catching up with my family after a very long absence. I love my family and due to conflicting schedules it’s super hard for us to catch up on the regular. We had a BBQ for dads birthday and sat out in the sun drinking and eating snacks.
3. JP and our wonderful Valentines plans. No gifts – just food.
4. Winning a $100 voucher for dinner at Southern Cross for both of us to go out.
5. Getting wonderful signs from the universe and feeling super positive about the shape of our relationship
6. Seeing my best friend randomly and chilling with her and her pup
7. The hours I work. Tomorrow is my WEDNESDAY! Am I excited? Hell yes!
8. I’m grateful that I made stupid dietary choices over the last few days. Feeling like shit has reminded me of how good a healthy diet is.
9. Stepping out of my comfort zone to get help with said diet and food.
10. Having heaps of fun at work!!

Weekly Love

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This week has been FULL ON. I really love my days on and off (Sun – Thurs) I like having a day to myself on the Friday even if I’m pottering about doing grown up stuff. I learnt a trick through Gala Darling this week about being more specific about gratitude and last night when I was feeling anxious I got super specific and I felt myself feel calm and relaxed.

1. Walk around the compound webcast which is literally the best thing ever! I’ve always loved big cats and seeing a little sneak peak into their sweet ways is so intriguing to me.
2. JP who makes me laugh so much, picks me up from work on Sunday’s and supports my decisions. I’m lucky to love someone who takes good care of me.
3. My best friend Aimee who if I see when I’m in a bad headspace offers me instant clarity purely with her presence. It’s sorta like coming home which would be about right after 17 years of friendship.
4. My apartment and room mates who I’ve lived with in semi harmony for the last 3 years which has made this place feel like a real home.
5. The colder weather which makes me feel so alive.
6. Gabrielle Bernstein who I knew about but explored her work only towards the end of last year which I fell in love with. I asked the universe for female role models and then I found her.
7. My parents who are so different but bring good things to the table. I really enjoy how we get along so well.
8. The long embrace I shared with Mickey after bumping into her a YEAR after I saw her last.
9. Meditation which I don’t do nearly enough but always makes me feel whole.
10. Having the benefits of going to therapy. CBT changed my life and I feel so fortunate to have experienced it.

Little things: gorilla greens smoothies; the long embrace Mickey and I shared after not seeing each other for over a YEAR!; impromptu boyfie sleepovers; falling asleep before 9:30 just because; air conditioning on a really hot day; getting all my chores done; playing with LOKI!; making new work mates; having make up free days; organising my debt and making a break even; not having to worry about wearing a jacket when I leave the house; being organised to the max; practising the art of not giving any fucks; fashion and shapes and the hour or so before I go to bed that I’m alone.

Weekly Love

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This week has been FULL ON. I really love my days on and off (Sun – Thurs) I like having a day to myself on the Friday even if I’m pottering about doing grown up stuff. I learnt a trick through Gala Darling this week about being more specific about gratitude and last night when I was feeling anxious I got super specific and I felt myself feel calm and relaxed.

1. Walk around the compound webcast which is literally the best thing ever! I’ve always loved big cats and seeing a little sneak peak into their sweet ways is so intriguing to me.
2. JP who makes me laugh so much, picks me up from work on Sunday’s and supports my decisions. I’m lucky to love someone who takes good care of me.
3. My best friend Aimee who if I see when I’m in a bad headspace offers me instant clarity purely with her presence. It’s sorta like coming home which would be about right after 17 years of friendship.
4. My apartment and room mates who I’ve lived with in semi harmony for the last 3 years which has made this place feel like a real home.
5. The colder weather which makes me feel so alive.
6. Gabrielle Bernstein who I knew about but explored her work only towards the end of last year which I fell in love with. I asked the universe for female role models and then I found her.
7. My parents who are so different but bring good things to the table. I really enjoy how we get along so well.
8. The long embrace I shared with Mickey after bumping into her a YEAR after I saw her last.
9. Meditation which I don’t do nearly enough but always makes me feel whole.
10. Having the benefits of going to therapy. CBT changed my life and I feel so fortunate to have experienced it.

Little things: gorilla greens smoothies; the long embrace Mickey and I shared after not seeing each other for over a YEAR!; impromptu boyfie sleepovers; falling asleep before 9:30 just because; air conditioning on a really hot day; getting all my chores done; playing with LOKI!; making new work mates; having make up free days; organising my debt and making a break even; not having to worry about wearing a jacket when I leave the house; being organised to the max; practising the art of not giving any fucks; fashion and shapes and the hour or so before I go to bed that I’m alone.

Meetaversary

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Look how skinny we are! I think I lost my jacket that night…
A year ago today, JP and I met. I told myself I wasn’t going to go out that night coz I was low on cash but I really wanted to see my old work mates. Fast forward a bit and I see this gorgeous guy with beautiful straight teeth, a lush beard and a full sleeve of tattoos. Later on that night he approached me out of nowhere on the smokers deck. I thought I’d seen someone I wanted to avoid like the plague and he said ‘Are you watching the cricket’ and I was like ‘uhhhh NOPE…..just thought I saw someone I knew’ and then it was awkward for a bit. We kept chatting and got along really well. I ended up taking him home thinking it wouldn’t amount to anything but we ended up hanging out once a week. It definitely wasn’t easy. There were a lot of get together then break ups until I was bored of it and said Id like to be friends. That didn’t last for long. I still had feelings for the guy and we get along pretty well so it turned quickly went back to the way it was before. It hasn’t been easy but boy was it worth it. He’s a very private kinda guy but I’d like preach his choir a bit.

As I mentioned earlier, 2014 was not an easy year for me. JP stuck through everything thick and thin and was always there to offer perspective and affection if I needed it. He always gave me a nudge in the right direction and has always been patient with me. Even though we have had rough patches the fact that we both wanted to persist is truly the best. Here’s to our nearly first year (properly got together sometime in April) together!