Today is JP and I’s two year meetaversary! Two years today we would’ve both been hungover, and at our respective homes after enjoying a coffee in my lounge after getting very pissed the night before. We can’t remember the proper date we got together but we took selfies the night we met so we just find it easier to go off that date. We celebrated it for the most part on Friday night, felt pretty average the next day, then went out to Beer Meats Grill for dinner, Kaffe Eis for dessert then bed to nap (actually JP stayed up till 2am watching Pablo Escobar haha!) We’re both feeling pretty slow today so we ate fish and chips at the beach then JP went home and have been facebook messaging ever since. JP has requested that I don’t post pictures of him all over the internet and I am totally down with respecting his wishes. All in all, this week has been a pretty good week.
Little things: precious alone time; Aimee scoring us tickets to Death Cab on the 20th!!!; home made pizza; making badass meatballs (recipe coming shortly); getting motivated for a new step; listening to Death Cab; marathoning Pretty Little Liars; the Veronica Mars movie coming on Netflix; double animal house sitting coming up; Brand New releasing a new album this year!!!!; buttermilk fried chicken burger with fennel and apple coleslaw; smashing out five loads of laundry; sober till November (apparently); super kind pharmacists and of course a well made coffee.
We get to look after this cutie for a week in March!!!
This weekend was one of those weekends where you feel like it has gone on forever. I’m 100% not complaining (of course) but I feel the most relaxed I have in a long time. We went out to JP’s house on Friday night, got a curry, had a good sleep and laxed out. On Saturday we bummed about, did a bit of exercise and went to a BBQ where we had forgot we were going to be house sitting for in March then, today has been another bum around day. The exercise and healthy eating has been a lot better this week. We certainly have indulged a fair bit but I’m working on next week. I mean, on Friday I just ate a whole bag of chips (!!!) for lunch because I hadn’t organised anything…. I try and organise my grocery order before my pay cycle comes around so that I can get them delivered on pay day. Making dinner and lunch for two under $180 is a challenge (we go halves coz JP is here most the week) It is for sure 10 times easier than having to pop to the supermarket and try and decide what to eat!
Little things: sitting in bed and watching netflix; watching the Simpsons; having really good sleeps; getting away from the city; Jhene Aiko and DCFC coming to Wellington in February; staff party next weekend (anniversary the weekend after!); not being hungover; Bhavini’s food; Nike Training Club; alone time; lists & planning; achy post exercise body; and Pretty Little Liars (so bad it’s good)
Just like last year, I had a semi staycation not far from the city. JPs parents went away for two weeks so we had their beautiful home to ourselves. I felt super povo coming back to my place today and every time I looked out the window at the beautiful views I thought ‘#lifegoals’ then had a laugh coz who thinks in hashtags?! I have written a post about my year but had some formatting issues and was too lazy to use JPs iPad. Even though I was sad to go it was rad having his parents home to hang out with!
Little things: Sparkles the male mainecoon; looking out at the city lights as I went to sleep; not having to share things with other people; getting away for a little while; being really lazy; playing house; the warm weather!!!!; NYE (not going to town, dressing comfortably and going to a place with 0 cellphone reception!); finding happiness and purpose through meditating; working out again; the Simpsons; my dads engagement (I love my step mum to be); JPs parents (SO FUNNY); having dinner cooked for me; hanging out with Aimee and her puppy; Not That Kind of Girl – Lena Dunham AND #Girlboss – Sophia Amoruso; and of course, JP.
Is it bad that over three months ago I set some goals and haven’t started? Yes. Is it okay that I realised what the missing link in the chain is? Yes. Am I kinda embarrassed that it a) took me so long to realise it and b) what it actually is? Yes. Drum roll please….. alcohol! Yep, going out and getting on the booze in the weekends as well as after work drinks was killing all my goals.Have you ever tried reading a book drunk? How about quitting smoking? Getting a killer body? Saving money? Feeling emotionally balanced? My excess drinking was ruining all of that.
My drinking got really bad last November. I had a whole load of stress (predominantly this dude I was dating that I was crazy about that was leaving and the WHAT WILL HAPPEN WHEN YOU GO THIS IS SO GREAT was literally killing me) and I had just started a new job in a totally different environment to my work before. I am usually pretty adaptable but there was something different this time. Anyway, I would drink when my (now former) lover was on night shift during the week then I’d drink all through the weekend. New Zealanders have a pretty bad binge drinking problem. I can’t think of one person who can go out for one drink and not end up getting shit faced. One wine usually means about four but can generally lead to six…. I also come from a family of big drinkers so when I go to my dads we will polish off a dozen beers and crack open a bottle of wine. When you add stress into the occasion then the whole thing turns into a gigantic shit storm. My reality check was when I got told on at work for coming in hungover (there were a few other little things but this lead to the other things in the past and now) followed by a final warning. I was pretty ashamed off myself to be honest so I said ‘Nope’ to week day drinking. It was cool. I still had my weekends. Then when I had a weekend off drinking (last weekend) every one was like ‘You’re fucking joking?!’ nope. I went down stairs for a cigarette and the guys who work at the business downstairs were like ‘Whaaaaat? You’re not drinking? Usually you’re down here drunk at this hour!’ This is when I thought to myself ‘Ahhhh fuck Anna what are you doing?’ So the past week has been the gym, low amounts of alcohol, reading, making plans for Rarotonga and L.A in November and chilling the eff out.
It annoys me because I am so damned capable of achieving these goals. I’m four books in to the reading, four days into not smoking, a little while off coming off medication, in the midst of saving for a big ass holiday & four days into some insane fitness training. Everything is achievable and I refuse to let another year pass without achieving anything I want to achieve!