Guys I got to the gym! I used to work at a fast fashion store with a lovely girl called Iria. We worked at different stores and even now that we’ve parted we still always say hey and do the awkward ‘we should catch up!’ Back and forth but never do. After bitching and moaning about my weight she kindly put me on to her boyfriend who was a PT at the time. I had endeavoured to start PT sessions in the New Year but he found a different career pathway to explore. Iria so kindly took me through the best work out I have done in so long. It wasn’t easy looking at us work out in the mirror especially since getting big and once being so small. I arrived at the gym at 5:20 and we left at 8 so I was bloody excited to get home and eat.I am feeling sore today but it is the day to smash out another work out.
Iria is super inspiring to me because she started at the same weight I am and has literally has one of the best bodies ever. She has a no nonsense approach to the gym and girl goes there to WORK! We mixed up a lot of different exercises and focused on doing small sets with 3-4 reps and doing the exercise right rather than struggle through a set of 15 x 3-4, which I usually do, and do the reps with gusto rather than half assing it.
I’ve been getting back into my salads again and making us more vegetarian meals which is a nice change. Dr Libby’s book has really drummed the importance of overall well being into my brain. I’m drinking less coffee and more tea, I’ve started buying more natural skin care, and I’ve become a lot more aware of my breathing! I have even cut down on smoking (I am quitting but doing so slowly) going from 3/4 of a packet a day to one in the morning and maybe 4-6 in the evening.
Me in all my chubby glory
Finally back from holiday, fatter and more fabulous than ever. Just kidding, I got really sick on Boxing Day and lived on a fairly solid diet of bread and meat. And beer. Tis the season, amirite? I have been working on my self control like you would not believe. Aside from beers, pizza and curly fries last night I have been eating healthy for a full 3 days. I had scheduled a gym sesh with one of my old work mates who literally went from my size to having the best figure last year but, I’m feeling a bit poorly. This will be the last time I eat at maki mono!
My clothes were already feeling quite tight but over a period of nine days I managed to really push the boundaries. When I got home on Monday, Aimee said to me ‘Oh my GOD Anna your dress has split at the bum!’ I was MORTIFIED. Then I back tracked to what I had consumed and it all made perfect sense. Getting back into a routine has not been easy. We didn’t do our grocery shop until the Friday so for three days dinner consisted of KFC, Indian curry and Chinese curry. Then, on Friday some exercise tights arrived and JP sheepishly said ‘Uh, I think you need to go up a size…’ Yikes.
Self control has definitely not come easy. It requires you to really stop. For example, my co-worker who likes eating as much as I do, bought in a pecan pie for us all. I put aside a piece because I had already eaten a pastry for breakfast but the next day at lunch I had to give the man I call chocolate bear (Scrubs, anyone?) the piece of pecan pie I was looking forward to! Is it somewhat ironic that chocolate bear’s wife is a psychiatrist who looks after people battling eating disorders? Anyway, from that day on to today I have been eating good. Peanut butter toast, salad, fruit and lots of veges for dinner with lean meat. JP told me I looked skinny yesterday but unfortunately it takes time.
What has worked for me: having a plan! I know it’s not realistic to make myself big fancy breakfasts on a week day. I use a good quality peanut butter and grainy toast which gets me till about 11. I tried porridge the other day and despite being a decent sized portion, it did nothing for me. I also stopped gorging. I made vege burritos the other night and they were so, so good. I could’ve eaten another one but I relaxed and didn’t.
What I’ll do next week: start getting back into exercising again. I’ve walked to work all week aside from today. I would love to get up early and go but there’s no buses and I don’t want to get murdered.
Let me start off by saying that I’ve gone backwards. Oops! I knew that I had and for the past nearly two weeks my gym work outs have been regular and I am in love with the gym again. As you may or may not have seen on the news, we’ve had a pretty insane time here in Wellington. The massive quake that hit us on Monday morning (7.5 on the Richter scale and went for a minute!!) has meant I can’t work so I’ve been working out and doing a big spring clean of our place. I can’t tell you the last time I had this much time off work without being unemployed. I’m fairly certain I have adult ADD coz I’m not very good at sitting still for long periods of time. Reading is different but yknow?
I want to talk about some of the changes I’ve been making. I was talking to Mickey yesterday (who wears many hats and is a qualified PT and was once a Zumba instructor lol) and I was talking about how I’ve been so good and I’m gutted the results haven’t shown. She was like ‘GURL I FEEL YOUUUU! You just want to see the weight come off of your hips!’ A-freaking-men, sister. So I stay patient and try and relax on the junk food and be as good as I can. What have I been saying to myself again? It’s a PROCESS and takes TIME!
On Sunday, I walked to the markets and came back then cooked for 3-4 hours. Do you know how easy it is to order take out when you literally just made it home without dying from exhaustion?! I do and I’ll take every chance I can to smash half a scoop of hot chips, a chicken curry, half a rice and some roti from Zhou’s Kitchen! I’m working on my meal prepping coz I am a) mindful of the waste I’ve been creating and b) like to eat something pretty vege heavy coz I know it makes me feel so much better. I made a Thai green curry (definitely did not omit the coconut cream), vege black bean burritos with home made salsa, meatballs and fresh tomato sauce, nacho Mince and beans and a vegetable quiche to get us through the week! I mean, there are some parts of it that definitely aren’t 100% clean however, it is all home cooked and fucking delicious (if I may say so myself!) I’d love to create a delicious meal plan for the blog so it’s in process, I promise.
Another big thing for me is that I’ve slowed the fuck down on my drinking! For the past 2-3 weeks I’ve been having 1-4 beers a week aside from last night (but I broke it up with coffee and a coke!) Which is super amazing for me. It’s strange coz despite being adamant that I’m having my fucking beers still I’ve slowly gone off of going out and getting shit faced. Time is of the essence and I have planned some cute outfits for our holiday with stuff I can’t (yet) fit.
Thank fuck it’s a long weekend! I’ve been hanging out for this for far too long. Only 9 more weeks till our holiday which I can stick out. It’s kinda funny how we talk about how fast the year goes when a couple of days ago Aimee and I were just talking about how long we had been at our new place and it felt like 6 months but I think it’s been 3-4 months?
JP stayed all weekend and it felt good to get up and do shit. In my older years I’ve taken to waking up super early. I love having a cigarette, coffee and listen to a podcast before the day really starts. I cleaned our place on Saturday, we ran some errands, went to the park and had some drinks then ate bolognase a la JP. We started watching Fargo (oh yaah) but I could barely keep my eyes open. Yesterday I went to the gym, we packed a picnic and got drunk with our friends at the Botanical Gardens then came home and kicked it. Today is a chill day. I definitely identify as an extrovert but I love not having to socialise sometimes. I also managed to clean my room! Feels so good to have my room rearranged.
Little things: visits from Percy the kaka; Rimmel lasting finish foundation; 9 weeks till our holiday; quick walks to work; having a clean house; warmer weather; My Favourite Murder (all I listen to I swear); the mother ducks and their babies at the botanical gardens; and getting to the gym
After taking two weeks off I decided to walk home today. I had a terrible sleep the night before and pushing myself to the limit wasn’t in my best interest. During this walk I got to thinking about working out and eating healthy. Some of these are semi double ups but bare with me. Positive affirmations and truths make the harder, shittier stuff much easier for the brain to digest.
1. If you want to get into shape you need to work for it otherwise you’ll be in the same space you started and will end up feeling crappy for not changing anything.
2. Your gym membership payment is just a donation if you don’t go.
3. The thought of doing exercise and eating healthy is harder than the act itself. Challenge your brain.
4. Eating healthier and working out only does good things for your body and brain
5. Working out is hard work but so worth it
6. Keeping in shape is in your best interest
7. Making an effort to eat better and look after yourself is an act of radical self love
8. Thinking about working out and working out are two completely different things
9. Creating healthy habits now are in your best interest as well as your future self and family
10. Eating healthy doesn’t have to be awful
As you know I’ve been so lazy recently. It’s not that I don’t want to I just haven’t been, yknow, doing. It’s daylight savings this week so yesterday evening I took Loki for a walk around the Botanical Gardens and felt so much better for it! When the weather is so mild and it’s light out it feels like a waste to be inside watching tv. I’ve started doing things differently this past week though. Also, that photo is not this weeks weight. I just couldn’t find one haha. So here is my list:
Stopped with the high calorie snacks – I was buying bags of nuts and eating 3/4 a packet in a day. Do I have self control? Most definitely not. I bought them for the week but after logging them in My Fitness Pal decided that I’m either going to have to weigh them or not have them. Same for bliss balls. The Tom and Luke’s peanut butter and cacao ones are bloody delicious but rack up the calories. I’ve swapped them for popcorn (I share it with my work mates), bananas, celery and a couple of slices of cheese on a grainy cracker.
Lunch is better – I am always horrified at how high Uncle Ben’s microwave rice is in calories (specifically the pilau one 10/10) but if I have it with 100gm chicken then I’m usually good for the rest of the day. I’m not bored of it yet but definitely going to look into different lunch options.
Weighing yourself after half-assing your diet and exercise is such a bitch but I checked the scales briefly and there hasn’t been too much of a change (thank god). I guess you put in what you get out so I feel a lot less bummed out if I know that change isn’t likely. Shit happens, time to move on.
I’m signing up to the gym again. Yep, as soon as my pay comes through on Thursday I’m doing it. Bring back the soul cleansing 2hr gym sessions I loved so much.
So there we have it. I’m working on it and doing my best to get there.
Yas gurl I made some progress! I don’t hate doing exercise so walking to work isn’t such a tax. Have I mentioned I hate smelly buses piled in with people? We had stock take on Wednesday so instead of walking I went to the gym instead. Back in the day I used to do two hours at the gym most days and I felt so much clearer mentally. Plus, my new job is right next to a gym so even when the weather is gloomy I can’t really excuse myself.
My eating has been pretty atrocious this week. I didn’t plan out our groceries properly so it meant I ate a lot of fatty take aways but in saying that I ate good when I could. I kept a log and it was basically takeaways, chips and the occasional home cooked meal. It is my goal this week to log every thing on My Fitness Pal. For real though, my eating has been like this:
2 pieces soy and linseed toast
Can of baked beans
2 poached eggs
1 vanilla energize up and go
2 pieces vogels with avo
Small piece of cake
Footlong ham sub
Meatballs and pasta
Chocolate and lollies
Meat and veg turn over and a v
Savoury bagel and chips
Chicken and rice
2 choc almond bars
3/4 bag of marshmallows
1 almond choc bar
ETC ETC. As you can see, I got bored of logging it all. But I need to relax on the treats for real.