A brief overview before I start: I have been living with depression my whole life. At 19 I was diagnosed and at 21 I decided to really do something about it. Here are things I do and have done for years that help.
Ever since I have started this blog (4 years ago now) I have been practising gratitude. Even before that my journals are riddled with things I love and things I’m looking forward to.
Its hella simple. Each night before you go to bed, write down THREE things you enjoyed about your day from coffee to seeing a friend ETC.
After that, another THREE things you’re looking forward to from getting a goodnight sleep to listening to your favourite album.
This Friday, JP and I went all out and got very drunk. Oops! I needed to let my hair down and boy did I do that. Yesterday we pretty much chilled in bed and hung out which was one of those nice moments where you know you love someone. Today we woke up and carpe’d the fuck out of the diem with Brax in tow. The vege markets had the best spread ever and afterwards Brax went bananas at the dog beach then later at the dog park. I am going to miss my weekends with him coz he’s so great and I’m cool with being unbiased about it.
We even had sun today, guys. It was so bloody nice. I wish I was feeling the body love for myself to get in my togs and go for a swim. A storm is heading our way overnight so I’m stoked we got some vitamin D. I haven’t taken my meds in 2 days so it must’ve done something?
This week I swear I’m getting back into fitness. By the looks of it I’ll need to be my own motivation but that I can do! I’m thinking of doing 3-5 times a week to start. I say 3-5 coz it can sometimes depend on what JP is doing etc but 3 minimum and 5 maximum.
Little things: coffee; JP being the real MVP; having some alone time; My Favourite Murder; pretty sunsets; clean sheets; seeing Loki after periods of being away from him; Tony Moly lipsticks; whoever created suncream, caps and sunglasses; gorgeous days getting the washing dry; banter with old school friends; really well cooked fries; having my iPhone screen fixed and my living arrangement always.
One of my favourite things in the world is when Aimee and I go for a drive and Loki puts his head out of the window. He makes everyone smile with his hair blowing in the wind while he is almost half way out the window. He would be flying if he had his own way.
Anyway, I took a hiatus. I was sick for pretty much a month straight and I’m finally better. I also started fearing what I was writing and didn’t think anything I wrote was good enough. I’ve now got over the fear it’s okay.
This weekend was one of the nicest weekends I’ve had in a while. My dad has gone away and asked JP and I to break Brax out of the kennel in the weekend. Naturally, I was all for it coz I love Brax more than most things. We took him to two different beaches and I hand fed him chicken for being such a good boy. Despite him being massive, he still jumps on my knee and occasionally manages to balance on there long enough for me to cuddle him like I did when he was a puppy. We had to drop him back at the end of the day which was hard (he’s too big for my place and Lord Loki isn’t a fan) We made pizzas on Saturday night then we went to the Carter Observatory which we both haven’t done in 20 years (!!!) and it was so, so cool. Afterwards we got Scopa hot chocolate and chilled.
My phone screen has been cracked for a while so I also had a social media break which by the way was harder than I thought. I couldn’t sleep last night because I didn’t have a podcast to fall asleep to so today I have been a total zombie. I got my screen fixed today so I’m looking forward to falling asleep to This American Life tonight.
Little things: fitness tights (swore I would never and now im CONVERTED!); JP and his spontaneous nature; Brax ❤️, big cuddles with Loki; The People vs O.J Simpson; JP making up songs about Loki while Loki stands in the door frames being very confused; sleep; having my health back; finally being able to take selfies again; having meals prepped in the freezer; fluffy buttermilk pancakes; having that one day of sun; having some Anna time; having a great boss; coffee and morning scones; being able to renew our lease during this housing crisis; and having Aimee live right next door to me!
I am truly lucky. This weekend, JP and I roadtripped up to Raglan. We’ve talked about going there for so long so JP asked if I wanted to go and the sweet angel paid for everything. Spending good quality time together when we’ve been together for 3 years is so nice. I never thought that night we met at the pub that we’d be here now! We stopped at Rotorua on the way up for the night and a vicious tummy bug meant I couldn’t really do too much. The next morning we woke up early and explored Raglan. What an amazing place! We are both at that stage that while we love Wellington, we are ready to move somewhere. Not yet but in the next couple of years for sure!
Little things: frozen raspberries; toasted seeds in salads; Dr Libby; having decent amounts of alone time; concerts at the Botanical Gardens; clean sheets; Loki loo and Aimee too!
On the first at 12:30pm my Great Uncle passed away. This Saturday we said our farewells and it was on end of the nicer funerals I’ve been too. I love learning about my heritage and it’s so fascinating because every time we go to one, I meet someone new in the family. The best story goes to my second cousins caregiver who received a random drunk text from a drunk 16 year old who she stayed in touch with for 4-5 years!
Today was a family day again and I went for a walk around Red Rocks with dad, my step mum and Brax. I haven’t seen him in ages and he let out a big cry when he saw me. He’s over a metre long now and can’t snuggle on my lap anymore (he tried more than once haha!) then we met my step sister and her boyfriend for coffee around the waterfront. JP picked me up after and after lunch we took Loki for a big walk around the Botanical Gardens. I had a good part of the afternoon to myself before Aimee got home. What I love about living with Aimee is that we hang out next door from each other but when we’re tired we can just pop next door and say g’day if need be. It doesn’t feel exclusive and it’s nice. Back to work this week! After being sick for over 2 weeks I’m looking forward to going back. Next weekend, JP and I are going up to Raglan and Rotorua for the weekend!
Little things: backseat dancing to shake off a shit mood; having eyebrows again thanks to Benefit; frozen raspberries; massive salads; Loki being his cute dorky self; JPs beautiful spontaneous personality (‘I’m coming over and we’re going fishing!’ and his sending me pictures of people’s pets when I’m not there); clean sheets; lemon water; Camelback drink bottles; salty sea water for my sinus’; being home; getting up and doing things; true crime podcasts while I sleep; concerts at the Botanical Gardens again; reading before bed and having my health back!
As soon as the clock hit midnight on Monday in New Zealand it has been nothing but chaos! I haven’t worked in over a week and we got told that we can’t go back on the office tomorrow either. It’s pretty damn terrifying. I’ve felt kinda calm but at the same time I’ve been checking Stuff, Geonet and the weather every couple of hours. The aftershocks are pretty small here but more often then not it’s another bloody aftershock.They’ve talked about red zoning the CBD (which I agree on) because people are still being evacuated!!! Argh, it’s driving me pretty mental as you can tell. Wellington is a small city which is why I love it and if people need to be evacuated for the sake of 1) public safety and 2) preservation and fixing the damn building then so be it. /rant over.
We’ve had some pretty insane sunshine the past couple of days which is much needed especially after the very wet weather we had at the beginning of the week. I managed to get incredibly burnt on my chest which is a massive reminder to get back into applying suncream every hour or two (honestly, it doesn’t have much effect when the ozone layer is in the state that it’s in and you’re pale as all hell.
Little things: I took Brax for a long walk on Friday and it was the best!!! He still tries to cuddle me like he did when he was a baby; sunshine finally!; getting back into being active; meeting the sweetest baby angel French Bulldog named Bobby at the pub (her Instagram is mrsbobbalina); My Favourite Murder, Criminal, This American Life; the views from our place; still being able to fit into shorts (just!); 31 days till we go on holiday!; getting into Kathy Reich’s; Facetiming Mickey; late night sundaes (oops!!!); getting back into a normal routine at home; iced coffees and of course JP.
Thank fuck it’s a long weekend! I’ve been hanging out for this for far too long. Only 9 more weeks till our holiday which I can stick out. It’s kinda funny how we talk about how fast the year goes when a couple of days ago Aimee and I were just talking about how long we had been at our new place and it felt like 6 months but I think it’s been 3-4 months?
JP stayed all weekend and it felt good to get up and do shit. In my older years I’ve taken to waking up super early. I love having a cigarette, coffee and listen to a podcast before the day really starts. I cleaned our place on Saturday, we ran some errands, went to the park and had some drinks then ate bolognase a la JP. We started watching Fargo (oh yaah) but I could barely keep my eyes open. Yesterday I went to the gym, we packed a picnic and got drunk with our friends at the Botanical Gardens then came home and kicked it. Today is a chill day. I definitely identify as an extrovert but I love not having to socialise sometimes. I also managed to clean my room! Feels so good to have my room rearranged.
Little things: visits from Percy the kaka; Rimmel lasting finish foundation; 9 weeks till our holiday; quick walks to work; having a clean house; warmer weather; My Favourite Murder (all I listen to I swear); the mother ducks and their babies at the botanical gardens; and getting to the gym