Pt 2 of me writing about losing weight for the last time

I remember reading once that people usually stick to their diet for two weeks then give up. At this stage, I couldn’t think of anything more disheartening as I’ve just past the two week mark. Labelling this the last time I’ll try losing weight is very final and I feel very, very determined. There were five days however last week where I wasn’t really motivated OR determined because I gave in and weighed myself. What a mistake. You would think after trying to lose weight for so long that I would be painfully aware (and I was!) that it’s a slow process. The scale told me I was the same weight as when I started but I’m sure there would’ve been a few changes.

The beauty of not weighing myself was that I was kept guessing and there was nothing that could stop me. Joe Wicks aka the Body Coach calls them ‘sad steps’ and I can see why. If I weighed myself in 6 weeks time and found that I lost 4kgs, I would be THRILLED. However since I hit a wall because I didn’t think I was going anywhere, it’s made me aware of the fact that I wouldn’t be going anywhere if I hadn’t started this journey. You have to start somewhere. Touché amirite? When I’m thinking logically I can see that scales aren’t everything but psychologically I’m desperate to see changes and make changes. I felt really down that nothing had changed and I felt even worse when one of my colleagues took a photo of me eating a sausage roll at a staff event only to look at myself later and think WHY?! I almost didn’t write this post and delayed it massively so I’m definitely going to work on my self worth here.

When you make a drastic change, you have to be in the right mindset and you have to be aware that slip ups are slip ups and to learn from your mistakes. The only difference between week 1 and week 6 is the excitement of change and your motivation level. Everything new is shiny and exciting and it should always stay that way!

What I’m going to do different this week:

– prepare my food and log it in advance so I can see that where I’m at

– make food to put in the freezer for when dinner plans fall through

– look into a gym membership to keep me going this Winter!

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Adventures in Weightloss

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10-15 kilos ago when I had discipline

Aie aie aie! It hasn’t been a good time lately. Did you know that there is never a good time to lose weight? Yup. It has taken me this long to realise this. I guess patterns need a little time to reach the brain….well my brain at least! I’ve got back on the bandwagon and aside from exercising everything is going semi okay.

Whats important here is that I am finally getting through to myself. If you stop you will never go anywhere and you’ll just end up feeling gutted that you fucked out and didn’t keep on. That’s been me for the past 3-4 years. I feel like writing about this is like a prequel to the actual event. I call it ‘The Hobbit: From Bilbo Baggins to Gandalf in 10 easy steps, 4 epiphanies and 7 failures’ ha.

I forget that Weightloss is as much of a physical transformation as a mental one. Do you love you right body? Yes. Are you doing this to improve your health? Yes. Are you doing this to improve your body so that in the future you’re a healthy and healthy human? Yes. There’s no point in doing something that you’re not mentally ready for giving up an old routine. I used to eat a lot when I worked out lots because I could (calories in, calories out etc)