This Friday, JP and I went all out and got very drunk. Oops! I needed to let my hair down and boy did I do that. Yesterday we pretty much chilled in bed and hung out which was one of those nice moments where you know you love someone. Today we woke up and carpe’d the fuck out of the diem with Brax in tow. The vege markets had the best spread ever and afterwards Brax went bananas at the dog beach then later at the dog park. I am going to miss my weekends with him coz he’s so great and I’m cool with being unbiased about it.
We even had sun today, guys. It was so bloody nice. I wish I was feeling the body love for myself to get in my togs and go for a swim. A storm is heading our way overnight so I’m stoked we got some vitamin D. I haven’t taken my meds in 2 days so it must’ve done something?
This week I swear I’m getting back into fitness. By the looks of it I’ll need to be my own motivation but that I can do! I’m thinking of doing 3-5 times a week to start. I say 3-5 coz it can sometimes depend on what JP is doing etc but 3 minimum and 5 maximum.
Little things: coffee; JP being the real MVP; having some alone time; My Favourite Murder; pretty sunsets; clean sheets; seeing Loki after periods of being away from him; Tony Moly lipsticks; whoever created suncream, caps and sunglasses; gorgeous days getting the washing dry; banter with old school friends; really well cooked fries; having my iPhone screen fixed and my living arrangement always.
One of my favourite things in the world is when Aimee and I go for a drive and Loki puts his head out of the window. He makes everyone smile with his hair blowing in the wind while he is almost half way out the window. He would be flying if he had his own way.
Anyway, I took a hiatus. I was sick for pretty much a month straight and I’m finally better. I also started fearing what I was writing and didn’t think anything I wrote was good enough. I’ve now got over the fear it’s okay.
This weekend was one of the nicest weekends I’ve had in a while. My dad has gone away and asked JP and I to break Brax out of the kennel in the weekend. Naturally, I was all for it coz I love Brax more than most things. We took him to two different beaches and I hand fed him chicken for being such a good boy. Despite him being massive, he still jumps on my knee and occasionally manages to balance on there long enough for me to cuddle him like I did when he was a puppy. We had to drop him back at the end of the day which was hard (he’s too big for my place and Lord Loki isn’t a fan) We made pizzas on Saturday night then we went to the Carter Observatory which we both haven’t done in 20 years (!!!) and it was so, so cool. Afterwards we got Scopa hot chocolate and chilled.
My phone screen has been cracked for a while so I also had a social media break which by the way was harder than I thought. I couldn’t sleep last night because I didn’t have a podcast to fall asleep to so today I have been a total zombie. I got my screen fixed today so I’m looking forward to falling asleep to This American Life tonight.
Little things: fitness tights (swore I would never and now im CONVERTED!); JP and his spontaneous nature; Brax ❤️, big cuddles with Loki; The People vs O.J Simpson; JP making up songs about Loki while Loki stands in the door frames being very confused; sleep; having my health back; finally being able to take selfies again; having meals prepped in the freezer; fluffy buttermilk pancakes; having that one day of sun; having some Anna time; having a great boss; coffee and morning scones; being able to renew our lease during this housing crisis; and having Aimee live right next door to me!
I am truly lucky. This weekend, JP and I roadtripped up to Raglan. We’ve talked about going there for so long so JP asked if I wanted to go and the sweet angel paid for everything. Spending good quality time together when we’ve been together for 3 years is so nice. I never thought that night we met at the pub that we’d be here now! We stopped at Rotorua on the way up for the night and a vicious tummy bug meant I couldn’t really do too much. The next morning we woke up early and explored Raglan. What an amazing place! We are both at that stage that while we love Wellington, we are ready to move somewhere. Not yet but in the next couple of years for sure!
Little things: frozen raspberries; toasted seeds in salads; Dr Libby; having decent amounts of alone time; concerts at the Botanical Gardens; clean sheets; Loki loo and Aimee too!
On the first at 12:30pm my Great Uncle passed away. This Saturday we said our farewells and it was on end of the nicer funerals I’ve been too. I love learning about my heritage and it’s so fascinating because every time we go to one, I meet someone new in the family. The best story goes to my second cousins caregiver who received a random drunk text from a drunk 16 year old who she stayed in touch with for 4-5 years!
Today was a family day again and I went for a walk around Red Rocks with dad, my step mum and Brax. I haven’t seen him in ages and he let out a big cry when he saw me. He’s over a metre long now and can’t snuggle on my lap anymore (he tried more than once haha!) then we met my step sister and her boyfriend for coffee around the waterfront. JP picked me up after and after lunch we took Loki for a big walk around the Botanical Gardens. I had a good part of the afternoon to myself before Aimee got home. What I love about living with Aimee is that we hang out next door from each other but when we’re tired we can just pop next door and say g’day if need be. It doesn’t feel exclusive and it’s nice. Back to work this week! After being sick for over 2 weeks I’m looking forward to going back. Next weekend, JP and I are going up to Raglan and Rotorua for the weekend!
Little things: backseat dancing to shake off a shit mood; having eyebrows again thanks to Benefit; frozen raspberries; massive salads; Loki being his cute dorky self; JPs beautiful spontaneous personality (‘I’m coming over and we’re going fishing!’ and his sending me pictures of people’s pets when I’m not there); clean sheets; lemon water; Camelback drink bottles; salty sea water for my sinus’; being home; getting up and doing things; true crime podcasts while I sleep; concerts at the Botanical Gardens again; reading before bed and having my health back!
As soon as the clock hit midnight on Monday in New Zealand it has been nothing but chaos! I haven’t worked in over a week and we got told that we can’t go back on the office tomorrow either. It’s pretty damn terrifying. I’ve felt kinda calm but at the same time I’ve been checking Stuff, Geonet and the weather every couple of hours. The aftershocks are pretty small here but more often then not it’s another bloody aftershock.They’ve talked about red zoning the CBD (which I agree on) because people are still being evacuated!!! Argh, it’s driving me pretty mental as you can tell. Wellington is a small city which is why I love it and if people need to be evacuated for the sake of 1) public safety and 2) preservation and fixing the damn building then so be it. /rant over.
We’ve had some pretty insane sunshine the past couple of days which is much needed especially after the very wet weather we had at the beginning of the week. I managed to get incredibly burnt on my chest which is a massive reminder to get back into applying suncream every hour or two (honestly, it doesn’t have much effect when the ozone layer is in the state that it’s in and you’re pale as all hell.
Little things: I took Brax for a long walk on Friday and it was the best!!! He still tries to cuddle me like he did when he was a baby; sunshine finally!; getting back into being active; meeting the sweetest baby angel French Bulldog named Bobby at the pub (her Instagram is mrsbobbalina); My Favourite Murder, Criminal, This American Life; the views from our place; still being able to fit into shorts (just!); 31 days till we go on holiday!; getting into Kathy Reich’s; Facetiming Mickey; late night sundaes (oops!!!); getting back into a normal routine at home; iced coffees and of course JP.
I admit – I’ve been a bad. I’ve been doing so poorly at losing weight that I’ve been embarrassed to come back and share the same results. After having a tough time (depression is in check it’s just other little things) I made time to talk to Michelle. Mickey would’ve been featured more in my earlier posts but since JP came along and is both getting busy our healing sleep overs were put on hold. My girl is in China teaching English right now and we talked for at least 2.5 hours on Tuesday. I laughed so hard my jaw hurt and then afterwards Shen promised to email a motivating email. If anyone knows how to reach me it’s her. She is the bringer of truths. We were supposed incredibly connected when we both went through heartbreak and when Mickey lost her dad. We didn’t let all of the terrible things happening stall our progress in life. We worked out religiously, ate good and worked on our mental state. We essentially fought ferociously for ourselves to be in a good space. We’ve both been through some very rough times and stints with chronic depression being one of them so making sure we were in a good space doing all we could was worth it. If one thing depression has taught me is that you can’t ignore yourself or your feelings and relying on all the things that make you better is the fight to keep better. Taking medication for it is just one part of the process. I’ll write about it more later in the week.
I’ve been working on not drinking so much and Wednesdays and Fridays are really hard for me. I’m not anti drinking but I’m anti drinking so much that it ruins your weekend and your weight. I made a date with Aimee to eat nachos and watch tv which was so nice. We live together but we don’t spend time together like we did when we hung out pre living together. Just like my FaceTime with Mickey, it felt so healing. It’s a reminder to myself that being selective with your friends is never a bad thing. Side bar – I saw a girl I was once friends with on the street and terminating that friendship was a reminder that sometimes you have to do the tough thing and ditch. As rough as it may sound sometimes you have to for your own well being. In the morning, we cleaned, got our laundry out and then took Loki to the dog beach.
Little things: watching the baby ducks at the gardens; getting Korean skin care from JPs sister; The Mindy Project; 5 or so weeks till we go on holiday; getting my fringe trimmed; sleeping in (I’m usually up at 6am so 9 was a nice change); chicken curry from Zhou’s Kitchen; My Favourite Murder; This American Life; seeing our little garden grow!; watching the fireworks hand in hand with JP at the New World car park post buying snacks #romance; the bits of the Steve Aoki documentary I was able to sit down for; Loki not being terrified at the fireworks (so brave); this moment where I am sitting in my lounge with the sporadic rain post coffee; and JPs mum who is the sweetest angel.
We’ve jumped between gray skies and sunshine this week. It’s been so bloody nice especially because it’s annoying when it’s still light out and it’s raining. Wednesday was beautiful so we went to the pub and had some beers followed by the best steak meal ever. We went out for dinner and drinks on Friday and it was the first time we didnt get ~loose~ in a long time. Saturday was so productive and we drove around heaps, went to dressmart, walked Brax then got the rest for the rum bottling (btw – amazing) We all slept in till 10 this morning (unheard of coz I usually wake naturally around 7) Then milled around.
Little things: only a few more weeks till our holiday; not hating my job or work mates; the fraudulent document course we’re doing this week; cooking for the week; clean sheets (just made my bed 🙌🏼); living with Loki and Aimee; American Horror Story: Coven (half watched while cooking); My Favourite Murder, This American Life etc); Kath and Kim; and avocado on toast.