Oops – pt 3 of me trying to lose weight for the last time

Well, hello. I wondered if I would write this post and despite all of my internal fear festering I decided to bite the bullet because even if I would love to write about successes, I unfortunately have nothing weight loss related to report on. I’m not mad, and I’m not being too hard on myself because of the bigger picture of what I have learnt in the last couple of weeks is what is more important.

The weekend before I started my new job I signed back up to Les Mills. I wish I had done it sooner because it is worth the money. When they say ‘find an exercise you like and stick to it’ make sure you really get specific with your choice because if you’re not really feeling it, you won’t do it. Since I finish at 4:30, I get changed at work then wander five minutes up the road and get on with it. I took it easy the first couple of sessions because being able to move the next day is very important to me. Lifting weights is something that I feel is very mentally freeing. It has always felt like therapy to me because it helps me with any self doubt (you are not enough, you are weak ETC!) by delivering a reverse message like ‘yes you made it to the gym!’ And ‘you’re doing something really good’ and most importantly ‘you’re making progress on your annual goal!’

After my first week at my new job I was so damn tired I was ready to go home. JP said he wanted to go home early that night so I decided I’d just go along with him and save myself cab fare. As soon as I got into the pub, I got myself a beer and decided to end this whole 12 weeks no booze business. What a mistake! I had made it 7 weeks and didn’t really miss it. I woke up the next morning incredibly worse for wear, ordered McDonalds, ate both of our McDonalds then proceeded to feel like death for a very long time after. The silver lining of it all was that I realised how much I cherish my weekends, and sobriety.

On my birthday we went out for pasta with our friends but first of all we had a couple of beers. I wanted a celebratory drink and I wasn’t going to feel bad about it. In case you can’t tell, I’m doing my best to diminish my inner sad sack down buzz voice. It was nice to have just two beers. I did however wake up with a bit of a hangover the next day so if I’m only going to do a couple of drinks, it probably shouldn’t be strong beer. The gym was a no go due to the freezing cold weather that week, but I’m going to work on that.

This leads me to today. Still full of hope and still realising that I need to cut the internalising of the should I shouldn’t I bullshit of my health. I’m in bed sick with yet another sinus infection and more than anything I just want to go to the gym and eat good. Stay tuned for next week and leave me your motivating content below!

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Pt 2 of me writing about losing weight for the last time

I remember reading once that people usually stick to their diet for two weeks then give up. At this stage, I couldn’t think of anything more disheartening as I’ve just past the two week mark. Labelling this the last time I’ll try losing weight is very final and I feel very, very determined. There were five days however last week where I wasn’t really motivated OR determined because I gave in and weighed myself. What a mistake. You would think after trying to lose weight for so long that I would be painfully aware (and I was!) that it’s a slow process. The scale told me I was the same weight as when I started but I’m sure there would’ve been a few changes.

The beauty of not weighing myself was that I was kept guessing and there was nothing that could stop me. Joe Wicks aka the Body Coach calls them ‘sad steps’ and I can see why. If I weighed myself in 6 weeks time and found that I lost 4kgs, I would be THRILLED. However since I hit a wall because I didn’t think I was going anywhere, it’s made me aware of the fact that I wouldn’t be going anywhere if I hadn’t started this journey. You have to start somewhere. Touché amirite? When I’m thinking logically I can see that scales aren’t everything but psychologically I’m desperate to see changes and make changes. I felt really down that nothing had changed and I felt even worse when one of my colleagues took a photo of me eating a sausage roll at a staff event only to look at myself later and think WHY?! I almost didn’t write this post and delayed it massively so I’m definitely going to work on my self worth here.

When you make a drastic change, you have to be in the right mindset and you have to be aware that slip ups are slip ups and to learn from your mistakes. The only difference between week 1 and week 6 is the excitement of change and your motivation level. Everything new is shiny and exciting and it should always stay that way!

What I’m going to do different this week:

– prepare my food and log it in advance so I can see that where I’m at

– make food to put in the freezer for when dinner plans fall through

– look into a gym membership to keep me going this Winter!

Eating better – an introduction of me writing about losing weight for hopefully the last time

I wrote an extensive list of things to do this year which is on my list every year. One of my goals is to eat better. I know it’s not exactly tangible (sorta kinda not really?) but since we aren’t drinking until July when we go away I thought I’d really make an effort now to see if I can drop a couple of kilos in the interim. Now, the weight part is obviously something I’ve struggled with (see previous weight loss attempts below) but I decided to focus on the nutrition side of it first because if you’re on a pretty solid track, the rest will follow, right?

We live in a pretty confusing time because there are hundreds of different diets with hundreds of different success stories. What also doesn’t help is the ads for weight loss teas, instagram models and endless comparison from social media. Again, what works for one person will not work for another and we all just need to find our own balance (which makes me cringe coz my dad says it ALL THE TIME)

What really has motivated me is that after each Summer for the past four years both JP and I vow that this is OUR YEAR! Of course we get stagnant, or one of us gets sick or something happens and it all falls apart. It’s harder losing weight in a relationship because if one of us mentions something (I.e beers after work on a Friday) the other is down. Our relationship started with food and beers and so we got fat and happy. Then fatter. Now bordering on obese because we got cocky with our early twenties metabolism, not really thinking about how it all turns to shit just a couple of years later.

I started the week by downloading My Fitness Pal which I’ve used on and off for several years. It is certainly a lot more user friendly for smartphones these days which makes it easier to track success. Given that I want to lose 1kg a week I was given a calorie goal of 1200 but it can often go up to 1500 depending on how hungry I get and how much exercise we do. I’m not going to be overly stringent with this because I’m focusing on eating better foods rather than packaged processed foods which is easy to fall into ESPECIALLY when you work in an office. I’ve still been contributing and participating in a calendar event I made with my two colleagues called ‘Bikkie time’ where we have a biscuit or two each day.

JP and I will often plan our meals ahead of time because when we don’t we just get take aways coz we’re both too exhausted to cook, find a recipe or can’t agree on anything. When you make a plan of what to eat it’s a less tricky balance having take aways but feeling ok about the progress you’re making. We use a mix of three Nadia Lim cookbooks because she adds the macros (fat, carbs, protein) and calories for each meal as well as having them listed seasonally which is a genius idea! Plus, the foods amazing and there have only been a couple of recipes that we didn’t love.

We organise our own lunch and after being robbed by a $12 wrap on Monday I decided to buy all my sandwich ingredients which cost me $25-$30 for the work week. It takes away the dreaded ‘what do I eat today?’ anxiety and makes it far easier to track. Some meals can get quite high calorie wise so having something a little lighter helps.

I do my best to get up and walk to work each day and I also downloaded Map My Walk which syncs with My Fitness Pal. I live so close so for me it’s just a matter of getting up early on the days where the weather isn’t too shabby. We have been really good with our walks in the evening which gives us quality time to shoot the breeze without cellphones or tv.

All in all, my first week has been pretty good. We did have a curry on Saturday and went to Wagamama on Sunday after a baby shower but it’s a good reminder to eat good when you can because when you do want something that isn’t fantastic for you, you can pick back right up where you started.

Adventures in Weightloss

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Me in all my chubby glory

Finally back from holiday, fatter and more fabulous than ever. Just kidding, I got really sick on Boxing Day and lived on a fairly solid diet of bread and meat. And beer. Tis the season, amirite? I have been working on my self control like you would not believe. Aside from beers, pizza and curly fries last night I have been eating healthy for a full 3 days. I had scheduled a gym sesh with one of my old work mates who literally went from my size to having the best figure last year but, I’m feeling a bit poorly. This will be the last time I eat at maki mono!

My clothes were already feeling quite tight but over a period of nine days I managed to really push the boundaries. When I got home on Monday, Aimee said to me ‘Oh my GOD Anna your dress has split at the bum!’ I was MORTIFIED. Then I back tracked to what I had consumed and it all made perfect sense. Getting back into a routine has not been easy. We didn’t do our grocery shop until the Friday so for three days dinner consisted of KFC, Indian curry and Chinese curry. Then, on Friday some exercise tights arrived and JP sheepishly said ‘Uh, I think you need to go up a size…’ Yikes.

Self control has definitely not come easy. It requires you to really stop. For example, my co-worker who likes eating as much as I do, bought in a pecan pie for us all. I put aside a piece because I had already eaten a pastry for breakfast but the next day at lunch I had to give the man I call chocolate bear (Scrubs, anyone?) the piece of pecan pie I was looking forward to! Is it somewhat ironic that chocolate bear’s wife is a psychiatrist who looks after people battling eating disorders? Anyway, from that day on to today I have been eating good. Peanut butter toast, salad, fruit and lots of veges for dinner with lean meat. JP told me I looked skinny yesterday but unfortunately it takes time.

What has worked for me: having a plan! I know it’s not realistic to make myself big fancy breakfasts on a week day. I use a good quality peanut butter and grainy toast which gets me till about 11. I tried porridge the other day and despite being a decent sized portion, it did nothing for me. I also stopped gorging. I made vege burritos the other night and they were so, so good. I could’ve eaten another one but I relaxed and didn’t.

What I’ll do next week: start getting back into exercising again. I’ve walked to work all week aside from today. I would love to get up early and go but there’s no buses and I don’t want to get murdered.

Adventures in Weightloss

img_6518You may or may not have noticed my lack of posting. 2017 came to a close and so did my consistently good eating. Did yours? It’s okay. I read that yo-yo dieting is bad but a part of not giving up is getting back on the horse until it sticks.

Second day of my holidays I get a sinus infection! It sort of made me stop and think about the stress answer the bad eating I had done but guess what – I kept going. Bye! It’s hard when you’re in a group and you’re eating out all the time and you tell yourself you’re going to get the salad but it’s covered in pesto dressing so you figure that it’s probably best to just idk, get the pizza coz it’s probably the same in terms of calories. Initially I had planned to wake up every morning and fit in a work out before we left for the day and cook everything on the BBQ. I’m still sick as all hell right now but all I can think about is Dr Libby’s new book ‘Women’s Wellness Wisdom’. I was so excited about it that after buying it I legit nearly got into someone else’s car. Oops! I bought it purely because I needed a reset. When you have eaten like a slob or eaten too much of the wrong thing and ditched all your old and good ways of caring for yourself or all of the above it’s good to dial that clock waaaay back and go back to basics.

Since I got back, it’s been fruit, veges and lean meat. I’m ready to battle this beast, man.

Watch this space! It’s my resolution to post 3 times a week.

Adventures in Weightloss

img_6344Let me start off by saying that I’ve gone backwards. Oops! I knew that I had and for the past nearly two weeks my gym work outs have been regular and I am in love with the gym again. As you may or may not have seen on the news, we’ve had a pretty insane time here in Wellington. The massive quake that hit us on Monday morning (7.5 on the Richter scale and went for a minute!!) has meant I can’t work so I’ve been working out and doing a big spring clean of our place. I can’t tell you the last time I had this much time off work without being unemployed. I’m fairly certain I have adult ADD coz I’m not very good at sitting still for long periods of time. Reading is different but yknow?

I want to talk about some of the changes I’ve been making. I was talking to Mickey yesterday (who wears many hats and is a qualified PT and was once a Zumba instructor lol) and I was talking about how I’ve been so good and I’m gutted the results haven’t shown. She was like ‘GURL I FEEL YOUUUU! You just want to see the weight come off of your hips!’ A-freaking-men, sister. So I stay patient and try and relax on the junk food and be as good as I can. What have I been saying to myself again? It’s a PROCESS and takes TIME!

On Sunday, I walked to the markets and came back then cooked for 3-4 hours. Do you know how easy it is to order take out when you literally just made it home without dying from exhaustion?! I do and I’ll take every chance I can to smash half a scoop of hot chips, a chicken curry, half a rice and some roti from Zhou’s Kitchen! I’m working on my meal prepping coz I am a) mindful of the waste I’ve been creating and b) like to eat something pretty vege heavy coz I know it makes me feel so much better. I made a Thai green curry (definitely did not omit the coconut cream), vege black bean burritos with home made salsa, meatballs and fresh tomato sauce, nacho Mince and beans and a vegetable quiche to get us through the week! I mean, there are some parts of it that definitely aren’t 100% clean however, it is all home cooked and fucking delicious (if I may say so myself!) I’d love to create a delicious meal plan for the blog so it’s in process, I promise.

Another big thing for me is that I’ve slowed the fuck down on my drinking! For the past 2-3 weeks I’ve been having 1-4 beers a week aside from last night (but I broke it up with coffee and a coke!) Which is super amazing for me. It’s strange coz despite being adamant that I’m having my fucking beers still I’ve slowly gone off of going out and getting shit faced. Time is of the essence and I have planned some cute outfits for our holiday with stuff I can’t (yet) fit.

 

Adventures in Weightloss

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I’ve been getting better. I ate pretty well last week. I still slip up and I still don’t hate myself for it. I was reminded this morning that things like catching up with friends and having takeaways sometimes is a okay. Eating and friendships are important. Maybe not eating take out but you get the jist. I have, however, realised the repercussions of beer. I really love beer. However, in terms of getting back in shape it’s probably time I just relax on the beers. It is 10 weeks until we go on holiday and I really, really want to be able to go shopping and fit some of my dresses. Last summer I was a bit lighter and I was miserable because all my dresses and shorts fit so uncomfortably and the new ones I bought were awful. I tried on an old dress on the other day and my best friend (bless her soul) tried to tell me it didn’t look too bad. Lets be honest here – white is v e r y unforgiving and two of my favourite dresses are WHITE (see photo above)

Exercise
I’m very proud of myself. I weighed myself last week and it wasn’t exactly what I wanted but it was not a gain (I think it was just under a kilo) The gym progress hasn’t been going so well. A friend of mine lost A LOT of weight over the past year and is looking toned and amazing. When I told her about my weight loss woes she gave me her boyfriends number (who is a personal trainer) who will hopefully help me develop a good routine and give me some different exercises to help me get back into business. JP also discovered a short cut to walk to work which is so much nicer than my usual walk. It’s half the time which is fine but I would much rather walk a shorter distance than miss out on an opportunity to get some exercise. As I have said before, it is so much easier to take the easier option.

Food
I’ve been working on meal prep a lot more. Cooking for a couple of hours on a Sunday when I am relaxed etc is ten times easier than cooking every night and worrying about what time I’m going to get to bed and whether or not I am going to get enough sleep. Also – making an effort to buy less processed food. This is a hard one. It can look fine on your calories but honestly – there are better things I can eat AMIRITE?

How I feel about about it everything
Writing about this has really changed my perspective and made me so much more mindful. It’s been interesting to read other peoples weight loss journeys and to see how far other bloggers have come which is really inspirational. Everyone can do it, it’s all a matter of actually doing it, yknow? I feel guilty if I haven’t put any effort in so I am really, really trying here. I love that there is a community of people in the exact same boat as me.

Challenge
I am proposing a challenge for myself. I said it ages ago when it was 14 odd weeks out from my holiday but this week I want to start losing a kilo a week. Now, I am aware that weight fluctuates etc and that is all well and good so I’ll do weekly measurements – this time I am SERIOUS. I will not do another chubby summer. I swear!